PHILOSOPHIZING -- written 3/25/07

Last night (3/26/07) I had an interesting conversation with an NBA player. Someone in the flock of people around him mentioned "kids" or "being in a relationship", I don't really recall. From there, he and I went on & on about relationships.

You see, for years I've said that my generation doesn't know how to be married, and HE AGREED! We are an impatient, rambunctious bunch who likes expensive things and believe in "the bigger the better". The impatient side of us is where I related it to relationships. If he or she is not acting right....you don't fight to make it work, oh no! You find someone else. Why would u? There are plenty of fish in the sea, right? I never got that expression because....sure there's "plenty", but if you believe in The One, then what is the saying REALLY saying? I love The Cosby Show, but even Cliff & Claire had their differences.

Our parents & grandparents stuck it out and made it work. He (the NBA player) & I couldn't figure out if the option of divorce was available back then, but if so, it was extremely cliche. I think if my grandparents had the mindset of my friends, they wouldn't have lasted as long as they did.

So what's the point of it all, says my generation? Why go thru the heartache and foolishness? The disappointments and pain? To make us stronger?? hmmmm...

Herein lies the issue b/c I don't want to die without a life-partner ("life partner" b/c like i said, I'm not convinced my generation can do marriage. Perhaps I can do it Goldie-Hawn-Kurt-Russell style). I'm just not sure if he (The One) is out there. And this isn't a pity blog, please don't feel the need to send you're don't worry girl, he's out there, comments! Really. It was just a simple joy to hear -from a man- that he had the same views as I did.

Really, it's not that The One doesn't exist but will he be able to have the desire to accept me and put forth the effort to try? Will he understand that I am a loving person and i show it different ways? Will his heart be open to share his inner thoughts & feelings? Will his self-esteem be high enough to know hearsay is just hearsay-if we're together, then I'm his and vice versa? Will he have the faith necessary to trust me with his heart? As the basketball player and I decided, he/she may be out there but our generation doesn't have the desire to make it happen. We are all talk and no game.

And I dare not cast blame on others. I think I could've easily met The One before, but the timing was wrong or perhaps I had some growing up to do. That's real talk. I mean, hell, I'm a part of this generation too...Though I don't believe we've got it, I'd like to maintain optimism in thinking when I am ready to meet my life-partner, he'll be ready (& fully equipped) to play the game.